I think I'm having online burnout.

My boyfriend and I have had a serious tiff of sorts online which pushed me over the edge, leading me to break one thing that really mattered to me: The Effing Guild. Before I elaborate, let me tell you guys about how to guild in Ragnarok Online: if you're the guild master, you kick out all the members first before you could break the guild. If you're a mere member of the guild, you just watch in horror as you and the rest of the guild are being pulled out one by one.

The way I did it, it was like ripping off pages from a beloved diary one by one. You don't want to do it, but you can't stop yourself from destroying the thing and you don't even feel sorry you did. You just feel like crap.

He tried to stop me as I kicked them all off one by one. He was in rank second to mine, so I took him out last.

Anyway, Fynn rebuilt the guild with him as the master this time. My character's still there. But now she doesnt even talk anymore...just a walking knight that logs in briefly to follow where he goes and logs out when I feel tired of it all, which is soon. I don't feel like playing much anymore. Sevrin's pretty much a bot now, something that I really loathed to do before. But now, I don't care. Ever since I broke the year-old guild--a slacker's guild, really--with all of the guild member's hard-earned exp and everything (yes, I took them into account when I did the thing), I felt I could do anything. Even jumping off a building without an afterthought.

I remember sobbing hard before pressing [Enter] key after I typed in the command: /breakguild "Knights of Obscurity".



As for my IRL affairs, all's well that starts well and I think my day to day life is peachy, as always. The cheery Selecta cart tunes are still there, so it isn't the end of the world. Despite the killer storms and tsunamis, my world is still intact as always--however limited the scope is.

Jesus crapola. The Will had neglected to update the RO blog for so long, it had gathered dust bunnies. So...for starters, this is the current Knights of Obscurity roster with corresponding notes:

Sevrin Astergarden
Fynn Elenium
Chimerah (Sir Valcrist's player's crusader. Sir Valcrist is now actively participating in WoE sieges)
Birds (Hebrew's player's other hunter. Hebrews is also active in siege)
Maraksus (Maraksus Aralnae's Agi Knight)
Reprieve (Vangel Mystic/Exoda's Acolyte-soon-to-be Full Support Priest)
Kurosawa (Inactive as hell. May get the boot soon)
Stajah (The powerful Monk)
Emerius (Assassin who adopts the guild motto "NVNC NE VIDES, NVNC ID VIDES" in his attendance sheet)
Syrix (Maraksus' IRL cousin. Knight)
Valan Barowin (Arion Smith's hunter)
Leon-Cross (formerly the Assassin Aerandir. Other character heads The Anointed)
Alena (Crusader. Other character is Leon Cross' Light-of-his-Life)
Ices_frostmourne (That incredibly fun-to-be-with Mage. Never start a party without her. Ever)
Keihatsu_Senshi (Swordsman who repeatedly calls both Sevrin and Fynn as "kids" for some strange reason. Other character was one of the earliest to apply for KoO membership but was refused due to some issues with his character name)
Alestor (Fynn Elenium's look-alike. Sevrin had long wanted to talk to him to get into the guild but never got around to. Fynn recruited him recently)
Darkside_Angel (Ices recruited this one. Sevrin has yet to get a chance to talk with him)
Yotoshi (Chimerah's friend's hunter)

These past few weekends the Knights of Obscurity engaged in guildhunts, hunting for the items the guildsmen had placed in cue in the Item Request list. I must say this is one of the most productive and also fun thing the Knights have done.

(Kudos to Fynn for thinking up this nifty idea)


L-R: Skeptic, Maraksus Aralnae, Electic, Sevrin Astergarden, Sir Valcrist, Fynn Elenium, and Ro-chan the Rocker

The above pic was taken when the KoO scoured Geffenia for a Whisper Card, as requested by Sir Valcrist. Mr. "I'm-Level-98-Yep-You-Heard-It" Skeptic looks cute in his bunny band XD.

We also encounter some bored moments where we just resort to annoy other players (classic example is Skeptic's spiel)--never to KS or loot, mind--or just plain...do anything we want. Like in the pic below:


Electic gets bored and tries to burn away his guildmate's clothes. Ack! The agony.

A chatscript sampling a typical guildhunt for a Knight of Obscurity:

Maraksus Aralnae : ang tigas ng sohee
Sevrin Astergarden : lolz!
Fynn Elenium : potah naloot yung muffler
Guildsman Skeptic has connected.
Sevrin Astergarden : gah
You got Black Hair 1
Sir Valcrist : o_O
Sevrin Astergarden : noooooo
Fynn Elenium : nawala e...
Fynn Elenium : nagtatayp kase ako e
Fynn Elenium : ang daldal niyo kase! >.<
Sevrin Astergarden : -_-
Maraksus Aralnae : pota ang tigas tlg nito

I'll post the translation next time, if someone's curious as to what it means. I'm too lazy right now to bother. =P

Yesterday's guildhunt was a bit lonely, with Sevrin having only Maraksus and Electic as companions. Fynn was...not in shape to hunt, though he did help out...for a few minutes.

Let's just say Fynn was present in avatar but not in spirit (I better ask Maraksus' will to mail me his screenshot of Fynn standing in catatonia while I made fun of him).


Translation: AFK (Away From Keyboard), searching for Fynn's goddamn player

Goodluck in getting your sobriety back, Fynn.

Fallen from the stars in the heavens, was Shadis Noir.

Shadis' origins are unknown, even to herself. Finding herself waking up in the world of Rune-Midgard, she is clueless as to who and what she is.

Lost and all alone, she was fortunate enough to stumble upon one Cor Codis, one Shadis fancies as a Novice Errant.


Shadis Noir and Cor Codis chatting after they have studied First Aid Application from Nurse Nami

Shadis happens to have an unexplainable urge to sleep which hits her frequently during her first days in Rune-Midgard, and what was worse was that people around her also felt the pull of sleep and gives in...


Shadis sneaking a nap in the Prontera Chivalry's naproom with some unknown bloke sleeping beside her (not with)


Two little novices taking a nap after hunting pickies and eggs, to which Cor Codis was unusually partial.

Shadis hopes that the sleep sickness she's suffering would only last on the first days of her stay in Rune-Midgard. Cor Codis is too nice I person to just ignore and sleep...

Postscript: The Will feels the same towards Cor Codis' Will.

(She prefers to be called "Fifi")

Sevrin Astergarden's blood cousin, Fiorenne is the only female in the Dastonia household who's been permitted to enroll into the Midgard Academy. Used to the lazy lifestyle of the priveleged, Fifi encountered great difficulties in her first few months as a student, until she met Laire Allicran who helped her in her training.


Fiorenne and the valiant swordsman with his pet, Trogdor the Burninator.

Eventually with his help she managed to graduate from her novice training and became a Magician. The former socialite was very grateful that her friend decided to stick around...that she has someone to fall back to.


Fiorenne after her job change

Earlier, Laire wasn't around (busy with his other passion, which is writing) so she decided to hang around. Her attention was called by a wizard named Kyla Valeheart, who offered Fiorenne membership in her guild, the Angel's Sanctum. Fiorenne kindly refused though, since she pledged to be with Laire Allicran and there is a possibility that the both of them may start their own guild.

But Fiorenne, without anything to do, joined Kyla Valeheart and her friends in their talk, which ranged from Valkyrie Profile to food.


L-R: Fiorenne, Akari, Gai Bolga, Kyla

Fiorenne wishes to thanks Kyla for the Apple o' Archer and the Clip. May she, Akari, and their friends prosper.